Almost, Never

Have you ever imagined a different world?
Different school, friends...family?
I have, all my life.
I do, all the time.

What if this?
What if that?
Kind of hurts the brain, huh?
Yeah, I know.

Sitting across from her.
Seeing this woman I did not know.
But knowing she almost raised me.
Never did it happen.

Almost, never.
How many do we have?
Those moments that create life.
That choice of what road to take.
What path to lead.

Almost, never.
What does it mean?
A paradigm learned through experience alone.
It boggles my mind.
An idea of complexity.

Almost, never.
So close, yet so far.
Who would I have been?
It almost happened,
But it never did.

Looking at it now,
It all makes sense
But I still don't understand.
What did He have planned?

One life to live.
If I could choose,
Would I have choosen differently?
But I can't, I simply can't.

Oh but how I wish I could.
Is it worth it?
Dwelling on the past, I mean?
Probably not.

Learn to accept.
Accept what?
A life I did not choose?
Doesn't seem fair.

I should be thankful.
Thankful I had a life at all.
So many have been robbed of that.
At least I breath.

Lord, help me understand
Your perfect plan.
Complex, yes, but perfect.
I can wish, but that's all it is.

Forward, not back.
Keep my eyes a head.
No regrets.
Yes, no regrets.

Almost, never.
So close, yet so far.
Who would I have been?
It almost happened,
But it never did.